I wrote this blog before we moved home, but I still wanted to share it.
I’ve had many disappointments in my life and this past week I was hit with another and I’m finding it hard to deal with, for the first time in a year my mind is full of noise and I’m finding it hard to focus, mindfulness alludes me. I need to let go of the soul-crushing news that my wife and I received, in fact, we need to let go together and help each other through it.
Mindfulness isn’t something that comes easy, you have to work at it but what I’ve discovered over the past year is the hard work is worth it and I know it’s mindfulness with my camera that is going to help me cope with the disappointment that both my wife and I are facing. As we start to find peace with the current situation this will, in turn, have a positive effect on Elizabeth my wife.
After spending the past week talking through the problem we’ve come up with a solution that we hope will work for both of us. Elizabeth is going to start writing a blog maybe online, at this time she just wants to spend the time writing for her own journey to mindfulness, she’s also looking forward to next year when we can start traveling together. One great thing that’s come from the pain of this past week is I’ve been able to open up more with Elizabeth something that I had found hard in the past, guess I never wanted to show weakness in front of her.
I’ve been pushing myself out of bed and out of the house with my camera in hand, it doesn’t matter if I take a bad photo or a good photo for that matter, its about being out walking among the trees and fields with the camera, listening to nature focusing on my breathing pointing the camera and without any distraction pressing the shutter button, mindfulness is starting to come back to me, I feel relaxed and ready to face the rest of the day with no negative thoughts and with just a positive attitude towards life.
I know that each morning for that first 30 minutes I’ll wake and feel low once again, but I just have to repeat the journey from the previous day and take things one step at a time. I know that I have a few special friends in my life, not to mention my son and my wife that will help me through this journey, I also know my son and I are also there for Elizabeth, we have a strong family bond and I’m so thankful for that.
Until next time
Update: Mindfulness helped us both focus more and in doing this we were able to look at the problem we were facing with fresh eyes we found a solution, and we were able to move home away from East Anglia and both of us couldn’t be happier. The obstacles we both faced have made us stronger and more connected with each other and I know I’m thankful for what happened.
